Proof this isnt a journey you have to go through with alone.
"I didn't think vaping counted. It was 'just a JUUL.' Then I realized I couldn't sit through a class without my hand reaching for my pocket. Quitting was harder than anything I've done, including math."
Getting properly diagnosed with ADHD at 16 changed everything. Once I was actually being treated for the thing I'd been self-medicating, the cravings got way better.
"School was so loud all day. The second I got home I was online, and I wouldn't come up for air until 3am. I told myself I was 'recharging.' I wasn't. I was hiding."
What helped was finding a therapist who didn't try to take gaming away from me. We worked on what I was hiding from, I naturally started forgetting about gaming once I had other places to put my feelings.
"Weed made the noise in my head stop. Until it didn't. Then I needed more of it, and the anxiety came back twice as loud whenever I wasn't high."
I'm three months sober. It's not a clean journey, I slipped twice but that's okay.
"It started as a $5 parlay with friends. By the end of last year I owed people money I didn't have and I was lying to everyone about everything."
Telling my older brother was the scariest thing I've ever done. He didn't yell, he helped me make a plan. Self excluding from every app I had was step one. Step two was figuring out what I was actually chasing.